sometimes when people ask about my results, i laugh it off and say thank god i didn't end up with the 4 U's i predicted. but sometimes i can't find a way to smile about it and i just tell them straight that yeah, i kind of screwed it all up.

funny thing is, either way, i'm not being hypocritical. yeah it's a miracle i managed to pull through. but on the other hand, i'm not supposed to get such grades in the first place. yesterday at tuition, the director happily asked me about It. i told her, with a suitably glum face, that i only managed one A. her face fell in complete shock, but she quickly recovered and brightly said, 'nevermind, rest get B la right.' Right.

looking back, i wondered what possessed me to opt for the science stream when i was obviously mathematically dyslexic. just because 'science gives you more options in uni what', or 'since take in sec school then just take now loh'. more options? yeah, i have a HELL lot of options now with grades like this huh. i was bloody stupid before, but it's over, and i need to move on. bah.