I guess the reality of something so impossible happening has kind of sunk in and i feel, YAY. =)

Thank God.

For this, and for a much clearer mind to help me with this decision.

Ok so now's the signing-up-for-camps period, and part of me is terrified that after such a long break from any sort of major social event, i'll be socially handicapped and unable to keenly participate in mindless rah-rah and sinister SDU schemes to increase Singapore's pathetic birthrate and even more pathetic ranking in that durex survey.

JC that time still can bluff us with all those "Say T! Say TJ!" hype. Now, I will not voluntarily eat an oreo off someone's upper thigh, especially if the said upper thigh is sweaty (highly likely after days of camp) and hairy (also highly likely in an SDU-sponsored camp. or in any camp, actually). Even if it is done in the name of bonding.

And i'm still dreading the idea of shared toilets.

I'm such a worrywart.

After weeks of waiting, and disappointment, and more waiting, and finally resigning to fate, ntu finally, finally offered me mass comm. I was gloomily logging in, all ready to accept english lit, albeit rather grudgingly, when "communication studies" happily popped out in front of me. I had to log in again two more times to make sure it wasn't some technical bleep.

And, oh man, i'm horrible. now i don't even feel as happy as i expected to be. I'm still waiting for my nus appeal and if i get it, its another dilemma all over again. Everyone says to go with your interest. What if you have two interests? What if your decision not only affects yourself but the people around you?

Its a huge headache, all this uni stuff.

I could be flying off to hk again next week, but there's just too many things to settle. i'm already having withdrawal symptoms - i miss the cold night breezes, the view of the tree with the red leaves from my uncle's apartment, the deja vu i get when i see places that i saw before on some tvb drama, and of course, H&M, citigate outlets, the $2 tvb drama serials and all the crazy shopping that would put GSS to shame.

meanwhile, i'm trying to satiate myself with more tvb marathons.