Ok i'm such a blog-hopper, but i'm moving. Again.

http://thelittlebluebook.blogspot.com

I guess the reality of something so impossible happening has kind of sunk in and i feel, YAY. =)

Thank God.

For this, and for a much clearer mind to help me with this decision.

Ok so now's the signing-up-for-camps period, and part of me is terrified that after such a long break from any sort of major social event, i'll be socially handicapped and unable to keenly participate in mindless rah-rah and sinister SDU schemes to increase Singapore's pathetic birthrate and even more pathetic ranking in that durex survey.

JC that time still can bluff us with all those "Say T! Say TJ!" hype. Now, I will not voluntarily eat an oreo off someone's upper thigh, especially if the said upper thigh is sweaty (highly likely after days of camp) and hairy (also highly likely in an SDU-sponsored camp. or in any camp, actually). Even if it is done in the name of bonding.

And i'm still dreading the idea of shared toilets.

I'm such a worrywart.

After weeks of waiting, and disappointment, and more waiting, and finally resigning to fate, ntu finally, finally offered me mass comm. I was gloomily logging in, all ready to accept english lit, albeit rather grudgingly, when "communication studies" happily popped out in front of me. I had to log in again two more times to make sure it wasn't some technical bleep.

And, oh man, i'm horrible. now i don't even feel as happy as i expected to be. I'm still waiting for my nus appeal and if i get it, its another dilemma all over again. Everyone says to go with your interest. What if you have two interests? What if your decision not only affects yourself but the people around you?

Its a huge headache, all this uni stuff.

I could be flying off to hk again next week, but there's just too many things to settle. i'm already having withdrawal symptoms - i miss the cold night breezes, the view of the tree with the red leaves from my uncle's apartment, the deja vu i get when i see places that i saw before on some tvb drama, and of course, H&M, citigate outlets, the $2 tvb drama serials and all the crazy shopping that would put GSS to shame.

meanwhile, i'm trying to satiate myself with more tvb marathons.

Apparently, people who put all C's in the mass comm mcq test got in. People who give attitude to the professors got in. People with results not much better than mine got in.

Mind you, i'm talking about the same person.

There is no justice in this world. I want to stab myself in the knee.

life is one hell of an irony.

for interviews that i spent days preparing for, printing out pages and pages of my portfolio, giving mildly intellectual comments that made the profs look suitably impressed - i didn't get in.

for interviews that i went in completely bo chap, forgetting my portfolio, telling them that this wasn't my first choice, talking about audrey hepburn, complaining about the damn ex cab ride there, and worst of all, made the prof reel in shock when i told him bluntly that my only A was a fluke - i got in.

my letters finally arrived from nus and ntu, but unfortunately, both courses are not what i want and i'm feeling even more lost than i felt in my previous letter-less state.

I'm still deciding if i should go for tmr's architecture/industrial design interview at nus. =(

I have zero interest in it.
On one hand, considering i haven't received ANY bloody letters so far, i feel like being kiasu and grabbing whatever opportunity i can to get into the uni. I can always transfer courses, right?
On the OTHER hand, considering WHAT the test involves i.e. building some flimsy contraption out of construction paper, i don't want to go there and watch my model fall apart while i walk to the front to present it. I don't know what they're thinking, can't they just do a good old-fashioned interview and stop there?
AND. You know how nus tries to push people out of those insanely popular courses by giving you your 2nd choice. What if I get pushed out of fass?!
But if i just don't go, what if it reflects badly on me and they just decide to reject me in every course?

Why the hell did i even put that as one of my choices anyway?!

My hopes dwindle as the days pass without a trace of a letter in my postbox.

WHY IS EVERYONE RECEIVING ACCEPTANCE LETTERS FROM THE COURSES I WANT, EXCEPT ME??????!!!!!!!!!! ='(